I feel like one of the worst & most frustrating parts of growing up chronically ill is that your sense of what is and isn’t ~normal~ for bodies to do is so skewed.
u grow up thinking that so many things that happen to you are completely normal and okay things that probably happen to everyone else that you never realize it isn’t and never even think of telling anyone bc it’s just this thing that’s always happened to u so why would it be bad?
& it’s not until u start to get really symptomatic or you finally get diagnosed that u realize holy shit this isn’t okay, this has never been okay
but then ur left wondering well what else happens to me that isn’t okay ?? What else having I been brushing off as normal that I should maybe actual mention to someone???
For real, I had no idea being in pain all the time was not a normal thing. Like I thought it was normal to feel like my skin was burning because I was exhausted until it started to happen more and more often.
(via roseamatus)
me whenever i have a cold: i can’t remember the last time i could breathe out of my left nostril…it must have been 14 years ago when i was a child on the farm..life was simpler back then….. i remember the sound of the creek over by that big rock.. when papa came home from the town bearing fresh yeast for ma to make bread with, i breathed in the crisp fall air through both nostrils before heading into the kitchen, where i could smell all of our spices
(via orgasmic-humor)
My dog is getting to be an old pupper and he has been having trouble holding his bladder and goes in the house instead of waiting to go outside. So we put down a puppy pad for him if he can’t wait to go outside. But just now he wakes up and I can tell he has to pee so I go toward the back door expecting him to follow happily to go pee. But no, this little dingleberry decides to pee on the puppy pad anyway, even though he knows he usually goes outside and then runs happily with his tail in the air.
things you need to know when talking to me:
- i talk really fast
- i mumble
- sometimes i talk really fast and mumble at the same time
- sometimes the words from my head don’t transfer right to my mouth so i sometimes just speak nonsense and im the only one who gets what im saying
- have fun trying to understand me
- i repeat stories a lot bc nothing interesting happens to me but i want to be validated
(via roseamatus)
I have finished 2 out of my 3 classes this summer!! I’m very excited because I will have a little more time to do some things I haven’t done in a while like actually work out, clean, and finally make jewelry and craft!!!!!!
